Where Is girl/Mistress? And What I Learned While Writing This Epic Novel…

Someone asked me recently why I haven’t taken the time to publish girl/Mistress on Wattpad and bring it back to life. Honestly, the real reason is because it is such a enormous undertaking that I am don’t know if I am ready to give that much time to it.

The novel, girl/Mistress was a book that I wrote back in 2009. It took seven years to actually publish it on Amazon and was the only book to make some money. Maybe somewhere around $300.00, give or take. The paperback version came in over 600 pages. It felt like the size of a Stephen King book. Each time I am ready for a new project for Wattpad, I look at girl/Mistress and pass up the chance to relive it to work on something else. One day it will happen.

For any of my peeps who knows girl/Mistress knows that this book life changing. Last night when I thought about this blog post, I wanted to to start off like this: It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. To talk about girl/Mistress that line is completely true. So here is the story of girl/Mistress.

The original story was TeenDom, a real person fiction centered around Emily Osment, Miley Cyrus, and the cast of Hannah Montana with an original character to star opposite of Emily Osment. After I finished that version of the story, I had a little obsession with the TV show or to say, Emily Osment. I came up with the idea to flip the story in a way to make it a fanfiction in the HM fandom. The title then became, I’m Not A Girl, Not Yet A Mistress. If anyone knows HM, you know that all the episode titles are song titles with a little humor to it.

I began writing it and posting the chapters on FanFiction.net back in 2009. This introduced me to a bunch of people I now call friends. It also introduced me to someone who completely changed my life. I met, online, a girl who I had a lot in common with, and she became my beta-reader for this story.

In my personal life, I had a girlfriend but we were not really happy at the time. A good word for it was BORED. So when this person came into my life and we had all the odd and warped things in common, it was inevitable that I fell in love with her. I broke up with my girlfriend, started a long distance online relationship with someone, got back together with my girlfriend, thought that I could have two women at once, and found myself more messed up then I already thought I would. All in the span of a couple years.

Ultimately, my beta-reader lost interest in me and the story. My girlfriend (now wife) almost kicked my ass out of the house. And I had a lot of pieces to pick up and make right in my life. Which I did. My girlfriend did not kick me out and we are actually much stronger together because we finally appreciate each other. I still have great friends from the making of this book. And my beta-reader married her previous girlfriend, so everything worked out in the end.

So I thought about a bullet point list of all the things I learned from this process. Here we go.

  • Online long-distance relationships don’t work.
  • If your girlfriend gives you a second chance, fucking take it and don’t mess it up. She’s a keeper.
  • My favorite couple to write about is Emily/Miley or Miley/Lily. Still is.
  • I like sex and I like writing about it.
  • Friendships can form on line and they are real. Thank you Karleen!
  • Don’t be afraid to let your freak flag fly. The keepers will help hold your flag with you.
  • A brilliant novel doesn’t happen in 30 days, it takes years to be ready but never will be perfect.
  • Never rely on someone else for inspiration, muses are good but they shouldn’t stop you from writing.
  • Write whatever the hell you want. There will be someone out there who will love it, too.

Finishing my second draft of “DESTINY”

This weekend, I finished up the second draft of Destiny and published it on Wattpad along the way. It’s always a good feeling when you can click the button that says completed. It’s like you can finally say goodbye to an old friend but it is bittersweet because over the past few months, I have fallen in love with these people all over again.

The idea behind the book, DESTINY came to me while actually on a road trip from Houston to San Francisco and back. On the things, I saw were these trees out in the middle of the desert that looked like they had caught fire and had melted. Being a writer all my life, sometimes I try to figure out how to describe the things I see. Throughout the drive, especially in Central California, we constantly saw varies different farms and I thought about what it would take to live there and work the area.

Being from the city, I immediately put that city girl and country boy together. It was a match made in heaven for me. My characters were all completely made up, making this the first story that was not fanfiction or based on a person. My male character was a hybrid foreigner and surfer. While I did not have anyone in mind when I created him, I pictured a cross between Christopher Atkins (The Blue Lagoon) and Charlie Hunnam (Sons of Anarchy). The visual in my head for my female counterpart was Jennifer Stone.

The original was under 50,000 words, it was somewhere around 46,000. By the time I finished my second draft, the finished version ended up at 53,820. I know writers should cut and cut and cut, and I did. But I also added two full chapters, expanded on ideas, and changed a few things that didn’t work.

But now it is done. I am ready to move on to my next project. I can not decide if I should edit an old story, work on a pending story, or start something new.

Who was the muse for “A Muse Is Born”?

I am sure that is the question on everyone’s mind, right? Who was the muse that help created A Muse is Born? Let me tell you.

A Muse is Born is about a writer who moves into an apartment complex and meets a not-so-confident actress and the two of them fall in love. It’s a simple story that has been told many times over. First off, no the write is NOT ME. He is an original character that I created to stand next to the young and upcoming actress. My muse is Jennifer Stone.

Jennifer Stone is an actress that I am still 100%, okay maybe like 95% in love with. She played Harper on the Disney Channel television show, Wizards of Waverly Place. There are not many celebrities that I have had a crush on that I still do. Honestly, there is only one. Jennifer Stone.

While there may be other crushes that come and go, Jennifer Stone has been with me for over a decade and she is far from leaving my life. I don’t know what it is about this girl, but I am utterly and passionately hers. Just saying.

This was the first of many stories I have written using Jennifer Stone as my muse. It was written while she was still filming the television show, so you can tell it is that old.

Going through my works and giving them fresh edits for the Wattpad publishing, I remembered back to one of the reviews I received when this was on Amazon. They mentioned how if the story was told in first person, he could not know what she was doing when he wasn’t around. With that in mind, I decided to add an introduction and a different epilogue that would fix that situation. I don’t want to give too much of the story and plot away, especially if you want to read it.

Ultimately, I like how to final edit turned out even though there are still a few things I might fix later on.

2013’s NaNoWriMo – “Dark Waters Ahead”

In 2013, I decided I would take the challenge of NaNoWriMo and write an entire book during the month of November. I did. And I completed it. I present to you, Dark Waters Ahead.

Dark Waters Ahead is my pride and joy and when it was up for sale on Amazon, it never sold a copy. Not even a download. This makes me sad and I believe it is the reason I gave up on selling my work on Amazon.

This story is about a high school boy who meets the girl of his dreams. Just as their relationship begins, they find out that their parents were dating and they were about to become brother and sister, which meant they were off-limits to each other. I mean, we know were wanted Greg and Marcia to hook up, right?

When our main character can’t have the girl that he wants, he turns to taking it where he can get it even if it was by force. The family goes on a cruise and Scott, our protagonist, takes his terror to the high seas.

The inspiration for this story happened by chance during a cruise I was on. Everything about the boat, the excursions, were part of my trip; though I was not a predator on that ship.

My two main characters were completely original and I had no real inspiration for them. A secondary character who Scott ends up molesting was actually inspired by a crew member of the ship. So there was a bit of real person fiction here. I mean, what is one of my stories without having someone real on my mind?

When I finished the story and decided to publish it, I asked my mother to read and edit it. She did. With the amount of graphic sex in this story, I am surprised my mother doesn’t think I am some sort of pervert.

What inspired “Cause and Effect”?

One of my favorite stories I have written is Cause and Effect, though I am not too sure where the inspiration came from for this story. The title of the book came from a song by Paulina Rubio, “Causo y Efecto”.

I wrote this story during my Hannah Montana fanfiction days which was probably about the span of a year, year and a half. During that time, I was writing all the time and posting a chapter almost daily of one story or another. I mostly wrote the fandom using Miley and Lily, but during my darker period with the fandom it went on to be about Miley and her dad. I am not proud of those stories and I actually do not have any of them.

Most of the stories I wrote during this fandom were short stories or ones that I started but never finished. Cause and Effect just happened to be one that I finished and am quite proud of it. It was originally titled, Girl Interruptous. Kind of going into the idea that Lily had just gotten out of rehab because of an accident that almost killed Miley.

It’s a coming-of-age story, as well as a love story. Originally, it was meant to put Miley and Lily together but ultimately a secondary character, Joanie, became such an important role that it changed the entire original plot.

Oddly, that happens so many times. A writer always says that the character write themselves and in this story, she did. During the rewrite and edit, the inspiration for Joanie’s character was actually Ruby Rose, as seen in Orange is The New Black. This rebel comes into the character’s world and flips everything all around. That is what this character did.

The final edit of this story made me fall in love with this character more than Miley or Lily and I believe she truly was the star.